3 for 3 :)

I'm lovin the new gym. I can go whenever I want. I went very very early Sat morning... as in 1 am. I didn't work Friday night so it gave me something better to do besides sit on the couch watching tv and eating. I went Sunday morning after work. I went this morning after work and I went back when Joe went around 11:30 ish.

So far total time on the treadmill 2 hours and 45 min. I also lifted weights Sat and today.

I'm not going to weigh myself too often. It just depresses me. I eat all the good stuff I'm supposed to eat. I kick ass in the gym and every time I get on the d*mn thing it hasn't moved as much as I think it should. So I'm not even gonna go there.

Checkin In

Trying to settle into a routine. I switched to 3rd shift starting Sunday. It's going to take a while to readjust. Tonight I'm off and after everyone goes to bed I'm going to the gym. I also need to do laundry, make tea and cut up fruit so we can have something good to nibble on that's good for us. I went to the grocery store after work this morning and I went over budget. But I needed to stock up on a lot of things.
It's been cooler here and that puts me in the mood to bake. I have the stuff to make cookies and bread. I may get to work on that after I get back from the gym if I think I won't wake the whole house. Cookies won't last long enough to tempt me with the way my boys eat. The grown boy especially. LOL

I've been doing better with mindless eating because of stress and boredom. And I think it's because instead of worrying about my finances, I now have a solid plan to get my debt paid and save for the goals I have set for myself. I know everything will not go as smoothly as I would hope and things will happen to throw me off track. But I know that everything I want to accomplish will get done because I have an awesome support partner.

Starting anew

How many times in life are you allowed a do over?

Well I said before I moved about 2 months ago and I looked for a gym to join. I found one that's close enough and I can access it 24/7. Membership fees aren't bad either. For my boyfriend and I it's $50 a month. Totally worth it to not have to battle humidity combined with 90 + temps now and 2 or 3 ft of snow later.

Today so far I had a big fruit smoothie with a peach, banana, and light V8 fusion... Yum :)
For lunch I have tilapia and spaghetti squash planned. I've never had spaghetti squash so I hope it's good.

My plan is to go heavy on fish, fruits and veggies. I want to try new foods, quinoa is one of them. I want to get myself to the gym at least 5 days a week.

My biggest motivation is that I want to be ready to get pregnant a year from now. If I'm at a healthy weight and living a healthy lifestyle then there will be less of a risk for complications and I will have a healthy baby :)

aggravated...irritated...annoyed

Why oh why do I let people get to me?!?

The mother of my boyfriends children...There are no words that justify just how much this woman annoys me. Today she was over 2 hrs late picking them up. It was getting close to dinner time and I knew they were getting hungry. I told the kids if she wasn't here soon we would go out and get something. About 15 or 20 minutes later she showed up. They told her we were going to go out and she said "Ha ha well I'm here now. Lets go." The tone of the ha ha was like she thought she was taking something from me... or them. I don't know.
Later this evening she said she was going to drop them off because they wanted to spend the night here...again. About 15 minutes before time to drop them off she called and said never mind. The kids were going to stay at her parents.

I moved in 7 weeks ago and while school is out they are supposed to alternate weekends. Every single time it is her weekend to have the kids they are here at least one night and then most of the next day. About 2 weeks ago she dropped them off and went out drinking with her friends.
I tell ya she really has her priorities in order.

And it's not just her that has my panties in a knot. I left a full time job with benefits and good pay to move here. I thought it wouldn't be hard to find something similar. Boy was I wrong!
I have a job but it only part time. And I make $2.55 less an hour. He has a great job. He was paying the mortgage, electric, water, gas, cable, etc, etc before I moved in so I don't have to help him with those things. But I'm still barely getting by. He almost had to pay my car insurance last month. There was a mistake on my final paycheck. It was missing 12 hours. I got that last bit of money just in time.

I love my boyfriend dearly but if I knew this was how things were going to be I would have waited a lot longer to move in.

I have entertained the idea of moving back. But there are so many reasons why I can't do it right now and there are reasons why I wouldn't want to move back at all.

I really needed to vent. I feel a little better.

Long time... No see

It's been way too long and a lot has happened. Most recently I moved to Ohio because I reconnected with the guy I dated in high school. He has 2 boys from a previous relationship. Things are going good.
I finally feel like I can focus on losing weight again.
I'm only 4 days in this round but I know that things will go much better this time. I know I will get a great amount of support from him.

ETA... After getting down to 205 last year I am now back up to 220.