Saturday, December 20, 2008

Early Weigh In

Ok so it's Saturday. But I thought just for the heck of it I'd weigh in today. I usually sneak a peek a few days before anyway. But I was so surprised by today's number I had to write.

This past week has been crazy and busy. Monday I went all over shopping. Unfortunately I found nothing for myself. No I take that back I did buy myself some perfume I like. I have the knock off version, but I'm lovin the real thing. I looked for pants for work and only found one pair that I half way liked. Cute but not for work. I would've been in heaven if I had found a coat. I have a coat but it's not my style anymore. I want a nice grown up wool coat. Maybe next year.

Now the weigh in....Got on the scale for a sneak peek. Weighed in at 226. Very pleasantly surprised since I haven't been keeping track of my food as well as I know I should.

Happy Holidays to everyone!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Monday Weigh In

Finally gathered the courage to get on the scale. Wasn't nearly as bad as I expected. Weighed in this morning at 232. Totally OK with that.
Had a Christmas get together for work last night. That went well. I had a ham sandwich with lettuce and tomato and some veggies. And since I worked before the party I was way to tired to get up for seconds.
Going shopping with my sister and Grandma today. Will burn lots of calories walkin around the stores.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Finally the week is over...almost

What a week. I'm exhausted. The last day I had off was Friday I think. It's been so long ago I've about forgotten. I'm off work tomorrow because I have my state test to take. I have to be there at 8 am. Yikes! And of course I work tonight. *Kicking myself for not asking for Friday (today) off too* Sometime before Sunday I need to make a few things for the holiday party at work.
Monday I'm off and I'm going Christmas shopping with my sister and grandma. The only things I can think of that I want/need are pants for work, a scarf and gloves.
I've been half azzing it on the eating right and exercise front. Monday when I finally have a bit of down time I'm going to sit down and figure out a plan in detail. My goals are too loose and vague. My idea that I'll just eat less junk and more fruit and veggies just isn't cutting it.
Gotta go study for my test. Wish me luck, cross your fingers and say a little prayer.

Monday, December 8, 2008


It's Monday, the day I usually weigh in, and I forgot. I was so sick early this morning. I don't know what caused it. After getting up the third time, I turned off my alarm when I crawled back into bed. I woke up with just enough time get dressed to ride to work with the roomie so I can have the car to get to work later. I feel a little queasy still. I nibbled on a few crackers and drank some crystal light. I'll probably take chicken noodle soup with me to work.
Today was going to be great too. I was in bed a little after 1am. I had my alarm set for 9:30. I was going to get something done. Oh well, it's just a small set back. I'll be back at it soon enough.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

No More Excuses

I can rationalize my way into or out of anything. It's too cold to walk outside, I don't have time to exercise, it's wasteful to throw away food so I'll just eat it.
Well folks...It's time to put on my big girl panties and deal with it!
There is no reason I have to stay up until 4 am. Yes I work evenings, but even the latest I've ever come home is midnight.
My goal is to be in bed no later than 2 am. Get up and move my body before work. No more sleeping until noon!
I have a couple of things I can do if I feel like I might binge again. A hot bath is good for lots of things. I can blog. Yes Ron I should have blogged after the first bad day. Having one day of things not going how I'd hoped doesn't have to roll into 2 or 3.
I'm not taking a cold sandwich to work. Instead I'm going to have one of the yummy salads with grilled chicken and light dressing. I don't even have to pay for it right away, I can put it on my tab. How great is that!?!

Fell Flat on my Face

The last 3 days have been a miserable failure. I nibbled at work. Who can resist lukewarm fries that have been sitting for like half an hour and are about to be tossed in the trash. Apparently not me! Thursday was just bad...the whole day was one big bad day. I was out of the lunch meat I had to make sandwiches for work. My last apple was bad. So I had to scramble for something to pack for lunch at work. Work was super busy. I'm not sure but I think we were missing a person. At least it felt that way. I had to stop at the store on my way home to get another loaf of light bread. The mood I was in, if I had more money to spend I would have come home with a pint of ice cream and eaten the whole thing. Instead I remembered I had a can of crescent rolls. I didn't even bother to separate them and roll them up. I threw the whole roll of dough on a pan and let it bake. While it was baking I ate a sleeve of Ritz crackers. I should just bought the d*mn ice cream.
36 Ritz crackers and a whole can of crescent rolls = 1520 calories
One pint of ice cream = 600 calories
A hundred little things just got to me and I caved. Work was crazy the past couple of days, it's been really cold and I hate winter, payday is still several days away and have less than $1 in my wallet, and it getting to be that time of the month so PMS has arrived.
My money situation gets me the most. I used make a lot more than I do now. The rent, water, gas, etc are paid and there's enough food in the kitchen. But I don't have money to just go buy something when I want it. There's still "bad" food in there. I didn't want to wait to start getting healthier. There's a million things I want from the grocery store. And it frustrates me to have to wait.
BUT even though I have fallen flat on my face I will get back up. The food in the kitchen is not exactly health food but it'll have to do for now. When payday rolls around, you better believe I'll be stocking my kitchen with fish, chicken, frozen veggies, fresh fruit, fat free yogurt, healthy cereals and snacks.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Monday-Weigh In

I had an ah ha moment. It was realizing I still had 3/4 of a giant (4.25 oz) chocolate bar. Normally I would have finished the whole thing in a day. When I saw it the other day, I had almost forgotten I had it. I tried to remember what day exactly I got it. I had to go back in my food journal to see when it showed up. I bought it a week ago today and had 2 pieces of it that night. Plus I still have a dozen mini brownies I baked on the 22nd,those are in the freezer. Out of sight, out of mind. It showed me that my mindset is changing. I love chocolate just as much as before, but I can be satisfied with a small amount. I really can have just a taste. The second bite of cake or pie doesn't taste any better than the first.
I don't particularly care for oatmeal. I know it's good for you and I have a large container of oatmeal so I'd better use it. Letting it go bad wouldn't be very frugal of me. I had heard great things about baked oatmeal so I decided I would try it. I divided the recipe in half since I'm the only one who would really eat it. The roomie despises anything halfway healthy. I used 1% milk instead of soymilk and brown sugar instead of maple syrup since that's what I have on hand. I also added 2 Tbsp of Splenda, 1/8 cup brown sugar didn't seem like much. It was pretty good. I didn't care for the raisins. I might make this again with a few tweaks. There are other recipes for baked oatmeal I will try out.
I had a really bad dream last night. In it I was weighing myself and somehow I weighed 252. It gives me chills just thinking about it.
Today is Monday which means weigh in. Today I'm at 230. Total lost so far 10 lbs. I'm not sure why I'm not happier about it. Maybe because I've done this before. Losing 10 lbs I can do. I've done it dozens of times. Keeping it off and continuing to lose is the real challenge. I know I'll be really excited when I get to 215. That number I haven't seen in more than 6 years.
To those of you who read this, Thank You! This blog started as a way to keep track of my progress. A place I can put pics and stats. Somewhere I can vent about the skinny b*tches who drink half a milkshake then complain about being bad cause they are so fat. Since I know people actually read this thing, I feel accountable. I feel supported. I know I'm not alone in my struggles to lose weight and become healthier. Maybe with my blog I will inspire someone to make the change in their own life to become healthier. Other blogs made me realize it's not going to happen overnight, I don't need to spend 6 hours at the gym everyday, I don't need a personal chef and a personal trainer, I will slip up but I only fail if I don't get back up.
Most of all I know people are watching me and I can't quit.